Just Philip

I am opening the lightsaber rig requests again! I can't wait to see what kinds of lightsabers you all want!

Would anybody like for me to release Han Solo's blaster and Obi Wans Lightsaber?

I made them for myself but if people really want them, I will gladly release them.

I attempted to make Han Solo's blaster and

it turned out better than I expected.
(Gun sight on top belongs to @crustyjpeg. Character model belongs to NinjaMasterScotty.)

I will be releasing the lightsaber rig soon. I'm just very busy so it might take a few days before it can be released. Hopefully that won't be a problem for the people that want the rig. Thank you for understanding!

So... anybody want Obi Wan Kenobi's lightsaber?

some stuff ive been working on

I know the lightsaber is too round. im gonna change that later.
(also, NMS Character rig by NinjaMasterScotty. Face rig by @Hozq)
I decided to change the character model since people didn't... seem to like the last character I had, but that doesn't mean im not gonna use the previous one. im just not gonna post any renders with it.

anyway that's all. see yall later. please remind me if I forgot to credit anyones rig in this.

im back

I think im gonna stop posting stuff and I might just start lurking 

I keep getting pissed off by people that I will not name because I don't want to seem like im attacking certain people, so I will just be here.

if I make something that is post worthy, i'll post it.

until then, I will be lurking.

Alright I'm done. I'm taking a break from the forums before something/someone pisses me off and I let my anger out on them.

I'm already frustrated and I'm gonna get more frustrated if I stay here any longer today.

I will see you all when I'm ready to come back.

Until we meet again.

recently made this. I really liked the way the render turned out.

what are some good shadow settings I can use? my shadows look like junk.

Anybody want a Stinger?

I'm gonna take 2 lightsaber requests from two random people. If you want one, please tell me what color you want and embed an image of what you want it to look like. Please try to keep it as a simple design, as I can't do overly complicated designs.

I'm making this a status update and not a topic post since it isn't necessary. 

If we really are gonna have WW3 (and I know we aren't for many reasons) and I get drafted, I'm rolling up with literally only WW2 weaponry. Screw all that new and fancy weapons. All I need is an STG 44 and a shotgun and I'm good to go.

btw this is only a joke

I recently got out of the hospital for the 8th time in 2 years. im hoping 2020 is gonna be a better year for me.

the year where im able to keep my diabetes in control.

the year where I make more friends.

and hopefully the year that is just genuinely better than last year.

anyway that's all. happy new years. until next time.

Hey guys. It's me, Philip. I haven't been around on the forums that much anymore due to me feeling like utter crap and having to keep my diabetes in check so I don't die. 

Merry Late Christmas. Sorry to the people that like seeing me around. I've been meaning to work on a lot of stuff like more rigs, wallpapers, etc, but life just isn't going the way I had hoped.

 I'm trying to be more active, but it's hard with school and having to make sure I don't die in my sleep. My diabetes is really screwing a lot up, so I haven't had the motivation to do anything, not even talk to family. 

Anyway, it's late and I still feel like crap, so I'm gonna try to get some sleep. Goodnight everyone.

In case no one saw cause it was late at night.

Alright. Update time.

Sorry that I haven't been posting any rigs or wallpapers. These past few months have been really rough for me, and school isn't helping in anyway. I haven't had motivation or time to make any rigs or have any ideas for rigs or even wallpapers. I've just been empty and it doesn't help that I have a huge pile of homework to do that keeps stressing me out because I have to have it done. My type 1 diabetes has been out of my control a couple of times, and I even went into the hospital last month for the 7th time in 2 years. I haven't really felt all that happy about anything anymore. I hardly find joy in playing games, hanging with family, or just listening to music. It's very rare I do feel happy while doing something, and when I do, I always try to cherish the moment. I can't focus on school or work since I'm always hit with a wave of feeling down or just procrastinating (I think). I've been trying really hard to make something, just ANYTHING, but I just can't. I don't know if anyone will see this or care before it's drowned in late night posts. 

Since I have school and all of this work, don't expect to see me on that much or even doing anything other than reacting to Topics. I'm sorry if I seem to be looking for attention, I'm really trying not to. I'm just expressing how life is going for me and it isn't going that great right now. I still have past drama that I'm trying to let go of, but it always pops up somehow.

I'm sorry. When I'm feeling sad or stressed, I sometimes forget what I'm writing or what I'm saying. 
My whole point is I'm not gonna be on as much. I'm trying really hard to make something, but I have no motivation.
I just always feel sad and sometimes there isn't even any reason why. I don't have suicidal thoughts, I just feel down about some things.

Sorry. I rambled. I'll just be going. Talk to you all later, and goodnight.

something ive been trying to work on but kept losing motivation. if anyone plays BF5 and you know the outfit my oc is wearing, you know