MrSpecialjonny

Well nobody said you couldn't vent. Go ahead. Its not good to keep that bottled up

Well I have a trainee ship at my mums work elderly caring....And...Sadly I cling onto people quite easily

There was this man that was such a nice man his name was Gerry...He was full of cancer....He is being fed through a tube directly going into his stomach....

He has less then 24 hours to live

I went to see him yesterday and his family was there

I wrote a nice goodbye letter saying he is a great guy with a big heart

I couldnt take it seeing him dying before my eyes

So I emotionally broke down in tears

Crap I dont know if I should to my cert 3 in age caring anymore

And the saddest thing is...That he told my mum which is one on the carers there

He said that Josh should do his Cert 3 and he smiled

That was 2 weeks ago

And now just by thinking about this and venting to you its just making me break down in tears

Jeez bro. Sorry for your loss man. You've lost someone of which you cared for, and he cared about you too. Its hard to thing  to take in when you will never see them again at one point in your life, but hopefully this doesn't detriment your mentality on life currently. Hopefully you live well with this personal loss of yours.