Just Philip

iM gOnNa tElL eVerYoNe hOw BaD mY dAy wAs fOr aTteNtioN

On a serious note, my life hasn't been the best since school started for me. It's been a little stressful and it's been hard trying to focus on work. Recently a bunch of the 6th graders (Yes, 6th graders. My school only has 9th and 6th for now.) beat the shit outta me bad enough I felt sore for the next few days and my legs and arms are still bruised and it still sort of hurts to walk. Yes, I know, a bunch of little kids beat the hell outta me, but I didn't really fight them back. I'm not a big fan of having a physical fight as I don't think fighting solves any problems. Moving on from that, I've had a huge loss of motivation to take the time to work on anything or to get out of the house and hang out with friends. I've been feeling quite sad because of family problems and issues with friends I've been having. One of my good friends sadly didn't like something I said, even though it was a joke, and she ended up blocking me everywhere. I've been getting into more and more fights with my mom and after every fight I have I always say sorry since I feel like a complete asshole after it. I'm sorry if me talking about all this made me seem like I'm looking for attention. I'm not trying to, I'm just letting out how my life has been for the past few weeks for me. Anyway, I doubt anyone will actually read this or anyone will actually see it since it'll probably be drowned in late night status updates.

I don't even know where I was trying to go with this. my life has been so messed up because of issues that I don't even know what im doing or saying half the time. I don't find joy in playing games or making a new render/rig anymore because of everything that's happened in my life. of course, people will just think im looking for attention. that's fine. believe what you want to believe I guess.