Benji

You know what, why not. I hit a pretty big milestone last month in terms of loving myself more than I did. I don't usually post stuff like this because it's my problems and my mental issues, but I do struggle with being depressed, anxiety, and self hate. I managed to build up the courage to go meet my best friend in person, and when I did it changed my life. He helped me, in person, to love myself. So I started trying. I spent days browsing hairstyles and fashion trying to figure out what I liked, but failed repetitively, slowly spiraling down into disliking myself more for my looks, because I'll never be able to look nice.

I shaved my face this afternoon for the first time in months, and so my friend said "Show me, I wanna see." So, I did. And he said "You look so much better." and that was the first time I received a compliment in months. It made me smile, and made me so happy to the point to where I almost cried. So, I took a better picture of myself because, surely I look better now. Honestly... I did. Appearance and looks is all a matter of personal opinion, but me being afraid of how other people see me blinded me and kept me from realizing that I don't think I'm ugly. Sure, I'm not perfect or flawless, but I'm me, and honestly. I like me. So here's me.